ALWAYS AND FOREVER

Kathy PovText © by N0ve/lDrama.Org.

I stared down at my hands, my heart racing as we got closer to the chapel that we were using for the wedding, I felt like throwing up, I was that nervous, I couldn’t even pinpoint why I was nervous, but I was, my hands were sweaty and I felt chills, maybe I was making a mistake by marrying Cross, maybe I should have tried and worked this out myself, maybe I would still be able to make it. “Hey, are you okay?” Anna asked, she was in the car with me, she looked so pretty with her baby bump, I always loved to be a mother but I have never thought about it much, now that I was getting married, would I get pregnant and give birth too? “Cut it out Kathy, this is not a real marriage,” I mentally scolded myself, Cross already said we weren’t gonna sleep together so I am not going to have his baby. “You are nervous right?” “Yeah, a little,” “I don’t know what to say, but it will be fine, I kind of understand how you feel, but Crosse is a nice guy, so you don’t have to be scared,” She said. “How do you know how I feel? Have you been married before?” I asked out of curiosity, I thought she was young and might have gotten pregnant in school, maybe she just had a babyface. “No, but I almost married the father of my child when my parents started pressuring me, but I decided not to do it because I felt it wasn’t right, we were both too young and he wasn’t ready neither was I, I haven’t told anyone else this, so please don’t tell them,” “I won’t,” I replied. “Thank you,” “May I ask how old you are?” “Sure, I am eighteen,” “I thought as much, how do you know Cross and his family?” “Hmm, Crosse is my Savior,” “How?” I asked. “Well, he helped me when I almost gave up, him and uncle Dean, it hasn’t been long net them though but they have helped me, they have my hope and a family,” “That’s nice,” “Yes, they are all nice people, so you should not be scared or nervous,” She said holding its hands, I smiled at her, if only she knew him well, she would not be saying this, but as I thought that, another thought crept into my head, what if I am the one who doesn’t know Cross, what if I have been wrong about him all these while because of a misunderstanding? I didn’t have much time to dwell on that because we arrived at the chapel, people were already there, my family snd everyone else invited, my mom only cane to make sure I cane and went back inside, my siblings also came by to say hi, but I still gave them the silent treatment, I stayed in the car away from the crowd until it was time for me to make an entrance, my dad came by the car door and knocked, I hadn’t spoken with him since I came back to the house a month ago, I wondered how we will be able to walk to the aisle together with so much awkwardness between us. “It’s time Katherine,” He said when I didn’t come out of the car, I tightened my hands into a fist, took a deep breath, before stepping out and holding on to his hands. “You look so beautiful, dear,” He said I was too shocked to respond, my dad has never complimented me, not even when I did well in school, it felt so new and surreal. “Thanks, Dad,” I finally said after a while as we both walked towards the entrance of the church, as I expected the media were there, and they were taking loads and loads of photos, I didn’t want to appear as an unhappy bride so I tried to smile as much as I could. “You know, I am not mad at you, right? And whatever you do you will always be my little girl, your mom and I wants the best for you and all our children that’s why we feel this is what is right for you, I was so sad when you ran away but I wasn’t mad at you, I was just disappointed when your mom told me you came by, I told her to go look for you, but before she could do that, you already came back with Cross, I hope you sorted out your feelings, my dear, if you want out now, I can drive you,” I may not show it enough but I care for you and your siblings and always want what’s best for you, even if you think it a wrong idea,” My dad said, and I stopped to stare at him, the shock wasn’t enough to describe how I felt since I knew my dad, this was the first time he has said something like this to me, I felt the tears well up, I should have gone to see him instead of my mom, but right now it was too late to turn my back on this marriage, that would be selfish and mean, Cross would never forgive me, and I won’t be able to leave with myself either, not when I am the one that begged him for this, this time. “Thanks, Dad, that’s the sweetest thing you have ever said to me, but I am okay, I am gonna marry Cross,” He smiled proudly at me and I smiled back just as they announced that the bride should enter. “Are you sure?” “Yes, Dad,” “Good girl, now let’s get you married,” He said as he lead me towards the alter where Cross, his best man, and Anna stood, I saw my siblings all clapping and my mom too, she looked happy and even had her phone out taking pictures, I don’t know if I can ever go back to the relationship I used to have with my siblings but I hoped, I can one day talk to them again, but for now, I just knew I can’t, I held unto my dad, smiling as much as I could, as I walked closer to the man I might be spending a long time with, even if it not forever, because I don’t see us going on forever, but I think we will stay together long enough for me to get back on my feet, long enough for me to pull my revenge on Louis and Pearl, long enough for me to fix my emotionally drained heart. My dad handed me over to him, and we both turned to face the priest who blessed us and helped us exchange our vows, and we both exchanged rings, our family and the crowd clapped and cheer when the priest pronounced us husband and wife. “You may now kiss the bride,” I heard him say, I looked at Cross, and he had a spark in his eyes, I wondered what it was. “Should we kiss, or should we just pull a trick?” He whispered asked as we moved close to each other. “What?” I whispered back. “Nothing, I just wanted to be sure you won’t kick me if I kissed you,” He said and before I could reply his lips captured mine, sealing our Union, I could hear the cheers and clap but I was too busy melting into the kiss I thought I would not like, he pulled off and smiled at me, I was too dazed by how well he kisses, that I couldn’t make out what he said after. The rest of the day and event went pretty fast, we took photos with our various family before we all moved to the reception hall where everyone eat dinner and toasted to our happiness, I could say I wasn’t much present thorough out the ceremony because most of the time I was locked up in my head thinking about nothing in particular. “I need to use to restroom,” I whispered to him over the music, he couldn’t make out what I said, because he bent over bringing his face closer to mine, I no Ed away in shock. “Are you okay?” He asked, I nodded and gestured with my hands instead, which he understood, he stood up to go with me but I told him I could go alone, I needed to breathe fresh, I stood up and walked to the restroom, did my business and came out, checked to make sure my makeup was still in place, I was about to leave when a woman’s voice stopped me. “You think because you guys are married then he is yours?” “Hmm, who are you?” I asked, I didn’t know the lady and couldn’t remember seeing her before. “I am the woman who is supposed to be in that areas, who is supposed to be marrying the man you just married, but don’t you worry, I am going to get him back, just enjoy it while it lasts, because it won’t last forever, I will take back what’s mine,” She said, and before I could get over what she said and ask her the questions that were running through my mind, she left the restroom, I tried to follow her, but when I looked out, I couldn’t find her, I looked around but still could not find her, I walked back towards the party, wondering who she was and why she thinks I stole her man, I decided that I would ask Cross about it when we were both alone, I joined him back on the stage and the rest of the events went by smoothly…