Bad Boy Isn’t My Type

Eva was hospitalized, she didn’t wake up for two days. I was horrified, nobody was listening to me. I was locked in my room. I struggled to breathe, trembling. My dad was not talking to me anymore.

I was in my room, crying, laying on the lap of my mother, when suddenly father barged in. He pulled me and hit me on my face.

” Andrew!” Mom freaked out and pulled me in her embrace.

” You bastard! Look what happened Selena!” He shouted and threw a paper on my face.

I took the newspaper and froze, when my eye caught of something.

Multibillionaire’s son Vincent Ainsworth caught in drug scandal.

He was found partying in his house, with illegal items. He was accused of sexual assaulting Mr. Smith’s daughter Eva Smith. The only son of multi billionaire Andrew Ainsworth caught in smuggling.

Nooo!!!!! It can’t be!!!!

I was losing it. I was seriously losing it. The news spread all over the place. To the school to the whole city. My whole reputation was ruptured.

Wherever I walked, people cursed me. I was about to get suspended from my school but my dad paid a huge donation to my school to dismiss the suspension.

Coming to school was another slap of sickening reality. Some students stared at me, I forced myself to keep walking, each step heavy and like going through the mud.

Everybody started calling me drug addict, psychopath, abuser and what all. I was getting depressed day by day. I lost my respect and dignity in school, I was thrown out of the football team and club.

I closed my eyes to stop the images from pouring into my mind, but they were relentless, folding out behind my closed lids over and over again.

Eva’s parents didn’t let me meet Eva. I didn’t see her the day that happened, she changed the school and the city.

But one fine day, Eva managed to get some time to meet me. She cried in front of me.

” I am sorry Vincent!! I…… I was afraid. I freaked out at that moment, I didn’t know what to do. I love you so much Vincent. Please forgive me, my mom and dad didn’t let me to meet you, but I managed somehow.”

I believed her, I f***ing believed her. I truly loved her, she was my first and true love. We grew up together and, she was the first one to approach me and support me throughout my life.

I was addicted to her, I forgave her despite scars. My whole life was a turmoil, but I soon learnt that she was using me, cheating on me…… with her new boyfriend, my ultimate enemy Jake Kinley.

Everything hurt. Every breath without her hurt. It was unbearable living in a world where she didn’t exist. I lost everything, from my reputation to my girlfriend. Eva left the country leaving me broken completely.

Everything would have been good, if Eva was with me. The old days when Eva was beside me, father’s respect, my reputation. My mind got fixed that Eva could only mend my conditions.

I begged her, cried for her to come back, but she betrayed me. She said she would be with me forever but she left me to die, all alone. I was getting mentally depressed, specially because of people calling me sick, psychopath, mentally ill constantly.

Dad: I think it would be good for Vincent if he doesn’t stay in this country. We need to send him to Hunsberg University, near Emma. New surrounding will keep him mind calm.

My dad decided me to send me away from the house, to the most famous college of the world Hunsberg University. I knew I was burden to them.

After the scandal, my dad business was affected. Eva’s father called off their partnership and joined with Jake’s father business. I couldn’t meet Eva, her father made security tight after the scandal, I couldn’t afford another scandal too, I could only wait for her signal, only for her mind to change.

My mind started becoming unstable, I started to drink and smoke which I was accused of. There was no point in becoming a good boy anymore, my whole life was destroyed already. There was no one whom I should impress…… my dad didn’t talk to me, Eva left me. Everybody thinks I am nothing but a trash.

” I hate you Eva!!!!!! I hate you!!!! Why did you do this to me!!!!!” I screamed, drowning in hurt, until I was drained of everything. Until I couldn’t find the end of the pain. I drowned myself in the water.

WHY DO I F***ING NEED HER SO MUCH WHEN I HATE HER!!!????

I HATE HER!

I HATE YOU EVA.

Blake spoke ” Eva is in France. My agent found out. Look at the video.”

I looked at the phone…… Eva was smiling with that bastard…… the bastard who took my Eva from me……

She’s gone and along with her, hope of salvation is gone too.

F***! I am so mad!!!!

She rejected me. That bitch rejected me. She broke me. Completely smashed me and I f***ing hate her.

If I were to see her now, I would have done nasty shit to her, and it wouldn’t be even close to satisfying me.

She’ll pay for everything!!!

Ahhhh!!!!!!!!

Why can’t she love me back!!!!

Why can’t anyone love me……?

Why does everyone feed me with pointless lies.

Why can’t everything be back to normal!??

My mind wanted to bring me back to that time, to torture me over and over again, to make me feel small with insignificant, with absolutely no control.

JENNIE WILSON…… JENNIE WILSON……

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“She is not Eva , for God sake…… she just looks like her.

“What the f*** are you talking…? She is my Eva idiots”

Suddenly Blake threw a file over my face.

“Look…… at this you assh*le” Blake shouted.

I opened the file.

Name: Jennie Wilson

Age: 18 years old.

Height: 5. 7 inch

Weight: 47kg

Works in Watson cafe as a part time job. Lives with her parents. Father works in steel factory as a labourer and her mother is a homemaker.

There were many pictures of her, her daily life…… Her whole bio-data.

* End of flashback*

I got off the tub and huffed for air. I clenched my fist too hard, doing everything possible to keep myself in place. I wrapped my arms around my knees and whimpered, rocking back and forth.

Jennie Wilson. When I tried to fight my demons, she popped out of nowhere. How can a simple human break me so much.

Jennie…… her bare face, her hair, her scent, her eyes…… she’s unique…… much different from Eva. Her lifestyle is so f***ing different from Eva.

Why is she affecting me, bringing my inner demon back, aching me to get into love again.

Why do I go crazy wherever I see her, I shouldn’t feel for anyone except for my Eva. Why does her words affect me deeply?

The day I saw her in the University learning that she was not my Eva was way more suffocating. Seeing her face everyday on the university, reminded me of the nightmare, the nightmare that have been haunting me from past four f***ing years.

My mind was dragging me to hurt her, inflict her the same pain, she has been giving me. I wanted her cry and suffer untill she vomits from all that pain.

What is wrong with you Vincent!!!??

I am a horrible human being, though it’s not her fault, why do I punish her instead of Eva?

Why do I give her pain, the pain that was meant for Eva?

She is younger than you Vincent!!… she needs to have bright future. Why do I treat her like a trash, which she doesn’t deserve…… I am monster!!

F***!

I thought my madness rules me, but more than this madness, she’s the one I can’t ever resist.

Her innocent yet bare face, her simple way of living, her clothing, everything of her was driving my mind. Why does my heart and soul calm down whenever I see her, come near her, touch her.

Why does my heart break whenever I saw her cry, I used to cry back in my room, whenever she cried. I never intend to bully her, but the way she behaves towards me ignited me.

Will she ever change her image of me?

Will she ever trust me?

Will she understand how lost I am?

” What’s the matter Vincent!? It hurts? I’m telling the truth. No wonder why she didn’t love you, you are mentally sick, bloody psychopath, You will always stay alone ”

I never expected her to say this.

Is that how she really sees me?

As a shell of a human with no feelings and regret?

She f***ing slapped me for some other guy?

How can a simple sentence break me this much?

But why it hurts me the most when I listen that from her mouth. Why does it effect me for every word she says?

Her mistrusts.

Her assumptions.

Her expectations.

Nooooo! Nooo!! Shut up!!! Shut up Vincent!!!!

She is fake like everyone is…… she is a gold digger, she’s just taking advantage of looking like Eva.

She can never replace her!!!!! She is just cold-hearted just like her!!!! I won’t let her mess up with me this time. She’ll pay!!! She is just helping me because she wants money, not me!!!

She hates me, then why she wants to help me? What is her game now???