BAIDER (ENGLISH VERSION)

I laughed so bad. “Do not kid me. I like you. That is it.” I stared at him with my twinkling eyes. I hope my cuteness will make him fall. He is what I love to see every day.

“I am not going to play. Stop this.” I immediately shook my head. “I’m not playing, Mr. Baider, I’m serious Like this.” I showed him my most serious looks. I was not kidding him. Just wanted him to laugh, but nothing happened. It looks like he is not a fan of laughter.

He stared at my face. “Please?” He was begging for reasons, I don’t know. Am I pestering him so much?

I stared into his eyes. “I’m serious,” I said sternly.

He shuddered and was obviously incredulous. “You would get hurt when you love me.”

“It’s okay,” I said with a smile. “When you love someone, the pain is always there. My dad and mom said, always fight for your dream. You are my dream.” I smiled widely.

“Stop this, Anmela Eris.” He looked at me seriously. My forehead furrowed.

Why? Because I’m just poor?

“I don’t want to,” I said in a high and wavy tone. “Mr. Baider, what’s that?” I pointed to his chest. He looked at that.

“Which one?”

“You already have my heart. You stole it. My heart is there living,” I said with a smile.

His forehead wrinkled again so I approached to straighten it. I was surprised at what I did when I kissed his forehead.

“It’s always like your forehead is furrowed,” I said with a smile.

He just stared at me. It’s a good thing he does not push me or anything because of what I’m doing. He is really kind because if he is another man and doesn’t like women, he might have punched me or shouted at me.

“You don’t have class? Just go.” He now looked at the papers in front of him.

I glanced at my watch. “Ten minutes before my class.”

“Anmela Eris, there are so many boys. Not me,” He said emphatically as his eyes were on the papers. He was holding it, but I guess his attention was on me. “‘Not me. Please. You will only get hurt.”

“But you are the one I want,” I said sincerely.

“Just leave me alone. I don’t want a girlfriend. I want to stay single forever.”

I looked at him curiously. “Why? Are you gay? Are you sick? Infertile? That is fine with me. I can handle it.” I covered my mouth with that frankness of mine. I was curious why he did not want a girlfriend. I never meant anything. Just a question. No matter what his problem is, I will always be here. I will accompany him. Even the earth stops rotating. He is so handsome. How many times do I need to repeat that? Funny.

He sighed before looking at me. “You don’t know the story. If I were you I would not push my feelings because it will always be complicated.”

I cringed at what he said. I did not understand that whatsoever. I am smart, but when it comes to him, I felt the most stupid person in Earth.

“Explain, please?”

“Just go,”he said emphatically.

Why is he driving me away? Is it because he’s rich and we do not matter?

“Why then?” I do not want to stop. I want to know the reason. This is my way of knowing him.

He let out a loud sigh again. “You will die. I said that.” His face was serious as I just laughed. I was expecting that I look beautiful based on how I laugh, but he did not notice it.

“I have been dead for a long time.” I winked and smiled at him. “Deadly like you.” I was trembling in nervous for what I have said. His expression did not change. “I want to know why I can’t like you?”

“You’ll die, how many times do I need to tell you?” He averted his eyes and stared into space. “Your love will harm you.”

I was silent at what was going through my mind. Whatever he says I do not seem to care because all I want is him. I reached for her cheek and stroked it. Why do I want you?

I asked in my mind as I stared at him. He averted his face and looked down. “Leave me alone. Leave and do not come near me again.”

My tears rolled down my cheeks and before they finally dropped I stopped them. It hurts me. I knew that I was overreacting or maybe I was just being a first timer in love. I just want to feel the feeling of being with someone you love. Is that too much to wish for? When I was watching a movie, I felt the pain in the characters. That was the painful experience in my life, but it was more painful if it was happening in reality. I will never wish more except for me to help my family and be a registered nurse. Laurent is not an exemption. I want to be with him all the time. Does it matter if he does not like me? As I always heard, if you love that person it is okay to be stupid. We are not in the world to do the thing we do not like, so as long as we are living, be happy.

“Are you two done?”

We turned to the speaker, it was Seilen. Standing on the side of the door while leaning her shoulder in it. She raised her eyebrows to me.

“Go to your class, Anmela Eris,” Laurent said emotionlessly and passed me. He joined Seilen. Ouch. Is this love hurting me? It was just the beginning, but it seems like an ending. I felt the stinging sensation in my chest. It looks like he would not really like me ever.

I came out of that room sadly. I first glanced at him who was now doing BP with an old man who I think was a professor.

You are hard to reach, but I would never stop pursuing you.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .