Enough For Him

“Found it ” Jessica said running into the room with a bottle of our favourite wine.

I had just gotten Jayson to sleep in his bed after the rough day we had. Jayson is only 16 months old and just like any young boy he loves his father. But Leon has a demanding job and most of the time comes home just in time to play with his son.

Me and Leon met 6 years ago at a wedding and we instantly fell in love you could say. I promised myself that I wouldn’t get in a relationship however when Leon was at the same school as me it was hard to stay away. A baby wasn’t really in his plans.

The thing that most attracted me to him was that he had this plan, had his future all mapped out. He wasn’t messing around he knew what he wanted and was hungry for success. You try and tell me that isn’t attractive.

Last night me and leon were arguing about how he never spent time with his son. I wanted him to create a bond with Jayson but he is too focused on his growing company rather than his fast growing son.

I screamed and hit him and I ended up in our bed alone after he shoved a nights worth of clothes in a bag and left. He had the money to go anywhere, where he would sleep tonight didn’t worry me.

All couples argue I know that, but there’s only so much I can take. It’s either about him not being home or the countless times i accuse him of prioritising other women over me. After all I was just the woman who stayed at home taking care of our son.

I stay home most days with taking shifts at my brothers shop as his co-owner. He doesn’t like how i am in charge of taking care of jayson but he was helpful in providing me with a job that i didn’t have to leave the house for.

” you can’t seriously be happy with Leon ” Jess, my best friend says as we watched a tv show in the lounge. I had invited her over to stay the night after telling her the fight we had last night.

This was a usual event for us, every week we fought.

I looked at her ” I can’t just be selfish Jess, I have my son to think about and he deserves to have a life with his parents, both of them” I tell her.

She doesn’t have children so she can’t understand that you just have to sacrifice for your child.

” Jayson may only be a baby but he would never want you to suffer. Leon doesn’t deserve you and you’re sacrificing way too much for him ” As you can tell Jess isn’t Leon’s fan. At the beginning of our relationship she adored him but recently He has been given her reasons to despise him.

” just think about it at least ” she added on as she turned to face the screen again.

I nodded ” I will ” I replied to her, my eyes falling to my phone. It was depressing that I kept looking at my phone waiting for him to message me. We watched tv for the rest of the night until both of us fell asleep.

I woke up at 5 am when I heard my son crying. He was screaming my name from his room, like he always does when he wakes up from his sleep.

I grabbed my jumper and rushed to meet Jayson who was sat up in his bed.

” oh my sweet baby mummy’s here” I said picking his up and bringing him into my chest.Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!

His head rested on my chest as I rubbed his back. His cries we calming down now as he leant on my chest, he could probably feel my beating heart.

Jess joined me in the room with a bottle of milk for him. I knew he needed to be changed and probably was wondering where his father was.

I placed him down and grabbed a brand-new nappy and started to change him as Jess made funny faces at him to distract him.

” you think we can get him into this” Jess said pulling out a black and white outfit from around her back.

I laughed because she always loved dressing him up in cute outfits. When she came to visit me at the hospital after delivering Jayson she already had his going home outfit ready.

She loved Jay just like her own and I knew as soon as I found out I was pregnant that she was going to be his god mother. I didn’t really have a choice though.

Her face when I asked her was something of a surprised one because I had only found out a few days before that she had sex with my brother. Neither of them wanted anything more but I was annoyed that they wouldn’t tell me.

When I called them to the house they thought I was going to be angry and possibly hate them but I actually invited them over to tell them I was pregnant and for them to be my sons god parents.

At the time my brother thought I was having a girl.

” here you try and get him in there” I passed over Jayson.

She happily started to change him. She occasionally tickled him to get him to break out into giggles.

I decided to have a shower before I needed to make him breakfast. My phone was vibrating with different notifications before I could even open the large glass doors.

I found a few images from last night with Leon and his business partner at an event.

Jealousy overcame my mind as I noticed how he was smiling around Emily he was happy. His arm was around her waist.

There was a video of them talking that random people were tagging me in. Leaving all types of comments that were implying a lot of different things.

I had received a lot of messages from friends with advice and support. This is the first time that they had been seen together in the media but for me, I have seen this many times.

I placed my phone down and jumped into the shower. I let the water drip down my body I tried not to be too bothered about it but my eyes were trailing down my body.

He used to love my curves, he would admire my body and he would worship me like I was some one in a million woman.

These days I don’t get any of that attention. Now it’s on a different woman, maybe my post baby body was unattractive for him now.

Pushing my new found insecurities to the side I finished showering and got dressed.

I found Jay and Jess in the lounge sitting watching a show on the tv.

I smiled. I don’t know what I would do without Jayson.

Another vibrate brought me back to my phone.

Relationship on the rocks? Leon appears to enjoy a night away from his family with Emily. See pictures.

It read.

Someone had mentioned me on instagram with numerous pictures showing Leon with that same woman.

As I scrolled through my heart broke when I saw the picture.

” babe? ” Jess said standing in front of me as I stared at my phone.

She took the phone from me and gasped. Clearly she hadn’t expected him to do that to me.

Why would he cheat on me. He didn’t even have the decency to break up with me before he goes and kisses another woman.

He’s lucky we’re only engaged, it makes me wonder why he bothered to propose when he would just do this to me.

” Stay with Jayson I’m going to find this son of a bitch” I said walking back into my room and grabbing my boots and jacket. This was the final straw, I was not going to be made a joke by Leon.