LOVE AGAIN

***VAL’S POV***

When I got inside the house , I lay down on the couch, massaging my throat and crying. I closed my eyes but all I could remember was his dark eyes and ruthlessness as he forced himself on me.

“I am so stupid to go ahead with the kiss, he wanted nothing but to get in me, he can have any type of woman, but yet I was born to be miserable”.

I closed my eyes and cried.

A knock landed on my door, I paused crying abruptly.

Could it be Daniel?

I sat up then remembered I am still wearing his sweater, that’s certainly why he is back,

I walked slowly to the door and opened it.

To my surprise Luke was standing in front of my door.

I was shocked beyond words, what is he doing here? Is the prank finally over?

“Hy Varie.”

That’s what he calls me when we are together, that brought embarrassing tears in my eyes.

I turned my face to the other side to hide my emotions.

“Why are you here, Luke?”

“Can we at least go in and talk, we are ex’s not enemies”he said softly.

I stared at him for a minute.

Don’t think about it Val, don’t say it out, don’t say you missed him.

I closed my eyes and pushed it down. I have had enough drama with these men.

“You are not welcomed here anymore, please leave”.

I said slowly and turned to leave, he grabbed my wrist.

I stare up at him curiously.

“Seriously you haven’t moved on?”

He accused me.

“Get your hands off me”I snapped and struggled to unwrap his fingers from my wrist.

“Let me go Luke, I have had enough for today”.

He pulled me over to him, I had to support myself with a hand on his chest inorder not to glue to his body.

“Varie…”

He ran his hands down my hair.

“You haven’t changed, still the same cry baby”.

He used his thumb to clean my tears, while I stared at him, unable to control my tears.

“Was it a joke all along?”

I asked him sobbing, it was a stupid question but for Luke I did ask that.

I hope it was all a prank, so I can get back with the man, my first love, who had filled my head with promises, someone I can do anything for.

He stared into my eyes and leaned forward, was he trying to kiss me?

He kept on leaning over and our breaths fanned our faces.

“You haven’t answered my question”I said and pushed my neck backwards to avoid his kiss.

“What do you think? Why don’t you grow up and just go along with this, you are such a drag”.

He said huskily.

I was triggered with that statement and I can see he is not here to make peace either.

I pushed him away and cleaned my face, standing about 3 feet from him.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

“Go along with what? Don’t mock me Luke,  I might have a soft heart but I am not dumb,”

He raised a brow up.

“Really, you are literally the dumbest woman I have been with”.

That statement hurts me to the bone, because I felt that he was somehow right, if not why did I let him to even touch me instead of slapping him hard, nevertheless we are alone and it’s night I have to be careful with him.

“Let’s go inside the house Varie, we can talk about it there”.

“I can’t let you in my house, say whatever you want here but don’t call me Varie anymore, if you have nothing to say outdoors then good night”.

“Seriously?”he scuffed.

I tried to close the door but he was pulling it back.

“Is this about that brat Prince? I know you are trying to get to me by going to the party with him but Varie…Prince ? seriously? Are you that dumb to not see it, the only reason he wants to be with you is your wide hole coochie, I told him you are loose and have a lot of juice going in there, did he make you squirt? I never did that to you, so I told him to try and make you squirt, you look so surprised… but Varie no man will settle for someone as shallow as you not talk about a billionaire and an idol like Prince”.

He said confidently.

I looked up at him with tears rolling down my cheeks.

“Last time I checked, a fool and stupid man begged on his knee and swore a lot of promises just to make that coochie bleed and break” I snapped back.

He smirked.

“The man sounds like a pretty smart man to me, the stupid and foolish one is the coochie owner who trusted a man with all her heart, we are all the same Varie”.

I opened my mouth to say a word but nothing came out. My neck was wet with my ever ending tears as we exchange words, the scene of my first time came to mind, how can someone change from the angel I fell In Love with to this …this heartless monster.

Is that how they all are, after what happened with Prince I don’t think I should ask further questions.

My hands and legs shook uncontrollably. I know he won this fight for sure.

“Thanks for making my life so miserable Luke, I gave  you my heart, got addicted to your presence and without a single hint  you left me like I was nothing, like I.. never felt something, like there was nothing between us”.

I couldn’t help it and started crying.

“Here we go again”,

I heard him sigh then he continued,”There was nothing between us, okay, it was Kamsy from the beginning”.

I laughed sadly.

“Kamsy?, from the beginning? The Kamsy I introduced you to? Was I not there in the beginning or don’t you consider me as someone you care about, what was I to you before then, a sex toy?”

I snapped loudly.

“I didn’t ask you to be one, you choose to be one”he smiled unapologetically.

Wow really? this heartless fool! I cursed in my mind.

“Oh you are blaming it on me , you were  my…my first man, and I was committed to you! I loved you Luke! I loved you so much!”

“Please can we stop talking about this broadcast about virginity, you don’t want to wake the neighbors by creating a scene now, do you?”

“Yes, you wanted a scene by coming here, I will give you one, what did I ever do to you Luke? My best friend? You know how much I loved Kamsy! I loved her so much  and you, I trusted you! I trusted her, I risked my life many times during abortions, even when I was advised to stop by the doctor, you assured me you will always be by my side!”

I burst into tears, it was so heavy from my heart that I couldn’t say another word, surprisingly Luke pulled me over and kissed me.

Out of shock I opened my eyes, I couldn’t control myself, I slapped him and pushed him away.

“Why are you here, you came back to torment me?”I screamed at him.

He touched the cheek and glared at me, I seriously prayed I wouldn’t get hit on again.

“What did you do that for? Aren’t you dying for this kiss? If you are smart enough, you did grab this opportunity and steal me back but now you are indeed the dumbest woman ever”.

“Steal you back”.

I scuffed, a sudden braveness arising in me.

“I did rather die than do that, you aren’t even worth fighting for, go ahead with Kamsy, she is your bride now, you should live your life and leave me alone, do whatever you want with her I don’t fucking care!”

I saw the shock in his eyes and I was proud of myself.

“What are you waiting for? Oh maybe I should call her to come pick you up, tell her , her new wedded husband is at my door begging for some coochie, he came back to his vomit maybe you ain’t sweet enough , so he did choose a vomit over his three square meal”.

He blinked and looked away uncontrollably then he smirked.

“Are you trying to sound brave? Smart? Sarcastic? You are still cute though, now Varie, enough of the drama let me inside the house, let’s talk properly”.

I noticed his hand was out of the door knob, I took the chance and slammed the door, then locked it up immediately.

“Varie….,”

“Valerie!”

“Valerie, open this door!”

“Please”.

“Valerie! Please”.

“Bitch! Ugliest dumb thing!”

I leaned on the door and slid down crying, ignoring his ranting. He hit on the door until he got tired and left.