Chapter 30
030 A Light Thing
Sebastian's POV
"Why? Did something go wrong with Ava?" Scar frowns with a shrug, folding her arms.
She is not even trying to be sarcastic, and that's the most sarcastic.
I thought my words would make her happy, like before, I know she is really hurt this time, but I thought her eyes would light up with sparkles even though she would try to maintain a cold face to fish for more comforting words from me, like before. But there is none.
I never knew her watery purple eyes could be so cold like dry ice. It stings to look at her eyes like that. You really want a divorce? I dare not ask. She would only say yes, even just to hurt me.
My mind has been in turmoil since Adrian messed it up. I can't imagine Scar asking for a divorce for real, but she hasn't been home for almost a week now, and she is not planning to any time soon. I'm not used to this. The whole house feels different now. It's no longer a home. Just a house.
I used to think it was silly for her to stay up for me when I got home late. I thought she was just trying to curry favor with me by that, and I didn't like being manipulated. But now she is no longer there, and I don't even know when I got used to her being there. Nights feel empty now.
How could she be serious about the divorce? It's not a light thing!
Not that I wasn't attempted to sign it, but not as much as I used to be. When it comes to anything but Ava, Scar can be a really tamed kitten. Okay to have around the house.
She is nothing like Ava. She is a cat with claws and a temper, one that you have to feed and pat and coax. In short, fun trouble. But Ava is a pretty bird. Quiet, mild...delicate. Something you have to protect.
1 know have been busy lately, and I know I hurt you the other day," I start, trying to avoid talking out divorce, I'll make it up to you. Can you please come home so we can talk about it?"
Scar tilts her head, looking at me as if seen something new. I have never come to beg for How did we use to solve a fight? Why is it so hard this time?
"Why did you agree to marry me five years ago?" Scar suddenly asks.
How dare she ask that?!
peace before.
"Why do you think?!" I grunt. Forget about making peace! She is just mocking me and enjoying my suffering and humiliation!
"Ohh, because you wanted me to donate bone marrow for Ava?" Scar nods, her cold smirk annoys me more and more, "Did you really think Jack Fuller wouldn't have made me do it if you didn't 'cave"?" Her air quotes really hurt me. I did cave! I didn't love her, and I would have never married her if she didn't ask for that as the condition to save Ava!
"What are you saying? That I love you?!"
030 A Light Thing
"No, quite the opposite," Scar laughs, and that laughter stings with sarcasm, "I KNOW you don't love me,
and you
know Jack Fuller would make me save Ava no matter what. Even if you didn't, you should know after last weekend. So."
"So? So what?!" I grunt, tired of her taunting.
Scar looks surprised before she sighs and says: "So, you don't have to feel insecure for Ava just because I divorced you. If Ava needs my blood, I WILL be there. That's why I'm staying in the city." I blink, stunned at her words. That's not what I meant. Is that why she thinks I'm here?Material © NôvelDrama.Org.
I totally messed up. I came to make peace, but everything about her is gulping at my reason. Her cold eyes, her indifferent demeanor, the way that my words couldn't put a smile on her, nor put anger in her eyes.
She doesn't care about me now. That thought breaks a cold sweat on my back. Why?! I used to pray that she wasn't in love with me, so she wouldn't target her dirty tricks on me. So what's wrong with me now?! "You are the one forcing me to marry five years ago, and now you are the one attacking me with a divorce! Is marriage such a light thing to you?!"
"A light thing?!" Scar wheels on me, shooting me a glare, her voice with a restrained shiver.
At least she sees me now.