Chapter 17
Chapter 17
17. 17. A Mistake
KIAN
The following day, I left before she even woke up. Posting one of the omega girls in the room, I told her if she woke up to tell Oliver, who was standing right outside the door, and to take her to the kitchens to work.
She could spend the day without blood. She deserved the punishment. I don’t know why I was avoiding her, but last night I wasn’t able to sleep. Turning towards her, I had just watched her sleep.
She moved a lot in her sleep, not something one would expect from a vampire. The stories were that they were stoic things who slept as if they were dead. But this one tumed from her side to her back, then on to her stomach, then on to her side, which gave me the perfect view of her breasts.
The moonlight had shone through a crack in the curtains, illuminating her. She really was the daughter of the night, and it was at night that she looked even more breath-taking… She had turned onto her stomach only to roll onto her back again. The cycle never stopped. She talked in her sleep too, although it made no sense. I guess she really had too much energy during her slumber…
But I hadn’t been able to sort myself out. It was weird, I had sacrificed my sleep to simply watch her. I forgot everything until morning came, when reality settled in once again. She was my slave, nothing more. I would reject her and cut this stupid bond, and if she refused to accept my rejection, then I would kill her.
‘You won‘t.’ Thanatos said quietly.
‘I will.’ I replied coldly, shutting him out.
‘Keep shutting me off, Kian. And there may come a day I’ll cut you off’ He growled before I put my wall up. That ruined my mood for the entire fucking moming.
It was way after lunch, and I was doing some paperwork in my office. I had asked Andrei to get someonet o bring me my lunch upstairs. I had heard from him that Morgana had gotten to work without a word. I hated that she didn’t answer me when I asked her to.
A light knock on the door made me growl.
“What is it!” I snapped.
“A-Alpha… lunch.” A young woman’s voice came.
I clenched my jaw, trying to reign in my irritation.
“Enter.” I growled.
Frowning when I realised she barely looked seventeen at most… if she had been older maybe I could have gotten some pent-up emotion taken care of. Women didn’t really say no when it came to me, but just in case they agreed out of fear, I usually got Luca to arrange someone for me. Morgana flashed in my head and I exhaled sharply. Since she had arrived, my sex life was fucking suffering.
The girl before me placed the tray down, shaking. I was sure I had seen her before several times, and I was sure she hadn’t been shaking then.
“Stop it.” I snapped making her flinch.
“A-Alpha…” She whispered, brushing a strand of her brown hair off her face. “C-can I have a moment of your time?”
I frowned. What did she want? Didn’t Liana handle this sort of thing or Sage?
“You can talk to Sage or Liana.”
“It-it’s to do with M-Morgana.” She whimpered.
The fear was rolling off her, and I looked at her coldly.
“Then stop shaking with fucking fear. What is it?”
“Last night, she only attacked the-the guard because of… me.” She ended in a hushed whisper, her heart racing disturbingly fast.
My anger dissipated and I sat back.
“Meaning?” I asked.
“That g-guard… he… he tried to force himself onto me… and I didn’t want to.” She whispered in fear.
My stomach twisted, trying to comprehend what she was saying.
Did Morgana really do that? I doubted it… Why would she protect a she-wolf?
‘Because our mate is a Luna.’
“You don’t need to try to defend her just because she pretended to be your friend, she’s a sly one.” I growled, ignoring Thanatos.
‘We both know this Omega can’t even speak because of fear, I doubt she’ll try to protect our mate.’ Thanatos grumbled.
“Did she scare you to talk to me?” I asked sharply.
She looked confused.
“No Alpha… last night I told her not to tell anyone and she told me to leave before anyone appeared.” She said hesitantly
My heart raced as I realised my mate had protected one of my pack members, from someone who should b e protecting them… and I had instead punished her…
“Why did you decide to tell me?” I asked coldly.
She paled, looking down at her hands.
“I… she looks ill… She’s hungry and she almost fainted earlier… I don’t want her to be starved be- because of me.” She said, fear clear in her voice.
“Leave.” I said coldly. 1
She looked up, and I could see from the comer of my eyes that she was near tears. She struggled to speak, and finally giving up, she lowered her head before she fled.
I looked at the plate of food before me and pushed it back. How could I fucking eat if I had starved her for n o reason? If only she hadn’t been so fucking stupid.
Alistair, I think I had a visit to make…
“Leave him there, if he makes it, he makes it. If he doesn’t, shame.” I said coldly, stepping out of the cell… Not only did he try to hurt one of the women in our care, but also hurt my mate…
‘A mate you don’t accept.’ Thanatos added moodily.
‘Fuck off.’
‘I live here!’ He growled. ‘You hurt our mate too!’ 1
I know I did. The guilt was still there, making a noticeable place inside of me. Fuck this.
It was a while later and I had just showered, I hadn’t bothered eating, knowing that she didn’t get blood… but I refused to admit that I was in the wrong. if she had just told me the truth…
“Kian…”
I tumed to see Kai walking towards me. Of the three of us, he was most like our mother in terms of personality and looks. Dad had actually paid little attention to him once Mom died, as he reminded him of her a lot. I had taken it upon myself to be there for him, although I had been only ten when Mom passed away and he had been eight.
“Kai.” I said, as he fell in step with me as we both walked towards the training fields.
Even yesterday, he found me, making small talk and saying he was glad to be back. I knew he had wanted to ask me something but hadn’t been able to muster the courage. Back then, he wanted to go with Cain, although I had told him the choice was his… even if he had only been seventeen.
“I was wondering if there’s anything I could do… like in the pack, can I join the warriors or…”
I looked at him, his hazel eyes that were a shade darker than mine, full of hesitance. Copyright Nôv/el/Dra/ma.Org.
“Kai. You are a part of this pack… You never denounced the pack, nor did the pack ever officially split. It was one pack that settled in two places. This is still your home, if you want something, speak like a fucking man – ask for it. Even then, if you aren’t given it, then fight for it and take it willingly. I am your brother regardless of the fact that we have not spent the last five years together.” I replied coldly.
He looked away and I won’t lie, it had fucking hurt when he had tumed his back on me too… He was the only family I had left that I cared about…
“I’m sorry.” He whispered. Guilt laced his words.
“Don’t be, I’m not.”
It was unspoken, but we knew what was running through the other’s mind. He took a deep breath and looked at me with confidence and determination.
“I want to join the warriors, I want to be part of the kings’ patk. I want to make up for the wrong decision I made years ago.” He said firmly, determination blazing in his eyes.
I smirked slightly,
“Spoken like a true Araqiel.” I said arrogantly.
The tension between us lightened slightly.
“I want to be man enough that I can at least apologise for my mistake.” He said with a small chuckle as we glanced out at the fields where two sets of groups were training.
I frowned, looking up at the blazing sun. Man enough to admit my mistake…. I clenched my jaw… I guess it was time to fucking do the same…
“Well, I’ll tell Gerald to fit you in. He’ll assess you and set you accordingly. The rest who came with you will also need to do their initial inspection before they can be assigned anywhere. I will let him know. You can go join in for now.”
“Now?” He asked, surprised.
“Yeah, why put off things you can do fucking right away.” I growled.
He smirked.
“True!” He jogged off, and I filled Gerald in quickly before turning and heading back inside.
Man enough to admit my fucking mistake…
‘Yeah, you hurt our mate.’
‘Fuck off.‘
Didn’t we already have this conversation?
I headed to the kitchens, masking my aura and scent as I peered through one of the open windows.
There she was, dicing away at some carrots, dressed in a white cotton top that was showing off the outline of her bra, paired with flared mint pants. Her hair was open and cascaded over her shoulder. She looked as gorgeous as ever, but her heaving chest and her pale skin told me she needed blood.
I was depriving her…. for what? For doing the right fucking thing.
‘Andrei, send Morgana out through the back, but don’t mention me.’ I said, moving away from the window.
‘Yes, Alpha!
“Morgana…”
“Hmm?” Came her soft reply.
A flare of jealousy rushed through me, I only heard her voice full of hate and anger… 1
“Can you go place these baskets outside?”
“Where about?” She asked.
“Just outside near the steps, the sun is out and they will dry.”
“Ok…” She sounded hesitant, and it was then I realised the sun was dazzling brightly today.
Fuck, I didn’t think of that. She would feel even weaker out in the sun. I heard her footsteps until she stepped out, holding four large plastic buckets. She looked up at the sky before separating the boxes and placing them upside down in a line.
I watched her, trying not to stare at her ass as she bent down to place the final one down. Damn…
Her hair shone, and I realised her black locks had a hint of blue in them. She stood up, placing a hand on her head as she made to go back up the stone steps into the kitchens when I stepped forward, grabbing hold of her wrist.
“Morgana”
Her head tumed sharply towards me, those gorgeous eyes widening as she stared down at me in complete surprise.
Fuck, I just called her name… And it sounded… So fucking perfect