The Love That Passed

Colleen’s POV

Jared left for work and I was in my room thinking about what had happened to me and Jared. It has been a week since that incident happened and until now, I still can’t believe that it does.

That was unexpected. I never thought that it was possible for us to be intimate. One of the reasons was my condition. I was just so thankful that he was gentle.

Even after that, we still sleep in a separate room. I didn’t want to go into his room on the second floor because I felt like it was too tiring for me. I remember when we woke up that day;

*** Flashback ***

“Did you sleep well?” he asked when I opened my eyes. At first I was disoriented and thinking why was he in my room, then I heard him say again, “Don’t tell me you already forget what we just did.” then I remember what just transpired.

Because of that, I got shy and tried to get up but he stopped me, “Where are you going?”

“I need to pee,” I answered.

“Make it fast and come back here.” he said then I got up. He was so demanding, why is he so demanding? I went to the bathroom and did my thing. I didn’t know that doing that was messy and until now, there are some of our juices that were dripping down my legs. I cleaned up real fast because I didn’t want him to wait.

I went out of the bathroom and I still found him lying on my bed. I walked my way to the closet to get my clothes but when I was about to get one, Jared stopped me.

“What are you doing?” he asked. He got up from the bed really fast and he was in his birth suit. I know my face is red now.

“Getting my clothes to wear,” I answered looking at him, confused. But instead of saying something, he carried me which made me scream.

“I am not gonna do anything, I just want us to stay in the bed and talk.” he said looking at me. He was handsome, but I never saw him smile. I wonder how handsome he was when he did.

“We can do that after we get dressed.” I replied.

“I want to see you naked, don’t you want to see me like that too?”

“What??” I exclaimed. Then he put me down in my bed and then joined me. I covered myself with my comforter and I heard him chuckling. I looked at him because I wondered why he did that and then I saw the side of his lips raised. Did he just smile? No it was just my imagination, I think.

“We should have talked after we did that but you slept on me.”

“I feel tired and whenever that happens, I sleep.”

“Tired for a round. I guess that’s your limit.”

“What limit?” I was confused.

“Just like what we did earlier, after we cum together, you are tired. I guess there’s no round two when we do that again.”

“Oh, that. I am not allowed to do that. I’m sorry.” I said I was full of regret. I like the feeling and I myself want to do it over and over again.

I could feel him looking at me but I didn’t bother looking at him. I know that he was curious. “What do you mean?”

“Uhm, I am not healthy enough to, you know.” I replied. I heard him sighed and I felt guilty. How can I not, when I cannot fulfill my duty as his wife fully. I think he was disappointed.

“Are you sick?” he asked and then I nodded. I wanted to cry that we are talking about this now and I didn’t want where our conversation was going. I didn’t want to tell him about the money that I was borrowing from him before.

The way I look at him now made me think that he will feel guilty about it. So no, I shouldn’t tell him that. “Stay in my room from now on.” he replied and I can’t do that. I didn’t want to go up and down the stairs.

“I am fine here, I already told you that this room is perfect for me.” I replied and then he looked at me. Now I can see that he was angry.

“You still want to have a separate room after what has happened to us? I thought that after this, you will not be stubborn enough and agree with me.” he said and I looked down.

“I can follow you but not on certain things. Here, in this room, I get to go out in the morning and get the morning sun I needed. The kitchen is just a few steps away and the living room. Everything was down here.” I replied.

“My room is on the second floor. Isn’t that enough for you to stay there?” He asked and I looked down again. After what had happened, I wanted to stay in his bedroom and sleep with him. But it was really tiring for me. I only went to his room when I prepared his clothes for work the following day and after that, I was down here.Belongs to (N)ôvel/Drama.Org.

“I’m sorry,” I replied, not looking at him. I heard him sighed deeply then he got up and pick-up his clothes and put them on. I was looking down and didn’t want to watch him leave my room.

“Colleen,” I heard him call my name.

“Hmm,” I replied, humming but I didn’t hear him talk and I stayed in my position. I was sitting hugging my legs with my forehead on my knees. Then I felt him raising my head.

“You’re crying.” he said then without knowing, I touched my face and felt tears on my cheeks. I was about to wipe it when he stopped me and wiped it himself then he kissed me. It was deep and passionate and I responded to him quickly. We were catching our breaths when we stopped. “Think about staying in my room. I will give you time for that.” he said and left. I was speechless, but even after giving me time, I know that I will still choose to stay here in my room. I sighed and got up from my bed to get dressed. I should be ready for dinner.

After that, Jared left the house and didn’t eat at home. I was so hurt because I thought we are OK now, but it turns out not. I had dinner by myself and got back to my room and didn’t say anything even if I saw Betty looking at me.

*** End of Flashback ***

Arrgghhh, it has been a week already and he has not talked to me ever since. I miss him and there’s nothing I can do about it. I still prepare his clothes but we haven’t seen each other again, just like before.