The Ruin Wedding

ANALINE POV

When Eliot came out of the door of the room where I am now, my face suddenly returned to a sad expression, I don’t know how I can resist the trial I’m carrying now, my daughter Anastasia disappeared while I’m also having illness.

Too much thinking I did not know that the door opened and Dr. Ramerez appeared there. She has been my best friend ever since.

“Hey, how are you, are you feeling okay?” She asked me as she approached me, I just nodded and smiled hard at her.

“Did you tell Eliot earlier what my condition was?” I asked her but she just shook her head.

“No, because I know you don’t want him to know what you’re condition.” She replied. I sighed because of her answer.

“As time goes on, your condition is getting worse Ana and that’s what I’m afraid of, I don’t want you to disappear from this world early I’m doing everything to heal you, but why don’t you want to seek treatment in another country?” She asked thoughtfully.

“You know I don’t want to leave Eliot and my son, I’ve been a burden to Eliot for a few years, I don’t want to add more especially now that our daughter are missing.” I told her.

“I know, during the time we were friends I knew what was going on in your life, even though you were not allowed to get pregnant then I still made a way for you to live, you almost risked your life first, you were so blinded by love so even yourself you didn’t think before. “She says.

“Is that how I love him too much, Rea? It’s not my fault that I loved, I’m just taking advantage of the days I’m with them, let me, I don’t want to go abroad for treatment.” I answer her.

“You have congestive heart failure, you feel everything but you don’t let go when you face your crazy man, you can endured the pain caused by your illness, but I hope you also take care of yourself, don’t hurt yourself I know sometimes you have trouble breathing but you just ignore it, and the condition of your two legs will tell you that you can’t walk anymore. ” She said straightly to me.

“I’ve known that for a long time Rea, I’m all used to the pain that I get from mom’s side, and I don’t regret that, I’m also tired of getting medical treatment since I was a child, I want to be free and be with Eliot and Anastasia even for a short time at least. ” I answered her weakly.

“You’re so kind that the lord will pick you up early.” She said frankly, so I laughed softly.

“By the way, you know, Eliot’s first love is back, right? Why aren’t you taking any steps?” Because of what she said I stopped for a moment before I smiled.

“Why would I take a step Rea? If I’d rather the two of them go back to the way they were? I knew in myself that I wouldn’t last long in this world, I wanted to leave peacefully and leave Eliot with someone to take care of him, I never Even considered Iris an enemy, you know, I’ve never been bad to other people because that’s what mom taught me. ” I answer her.

“It’s okay if the two of them come back, I can tolerate the pain, I can tolerate my heart pain even more.” I proudly told her.

“Me! Why I had a friend that very kind.” She said as she turned around and shaking her head beside me.

“Go back to your work rea and I can handle myself, maybe soon Eliot will come.” I told her.

“All right, I’ll miss you, take care of yourself.” She said Reminding me, I just nodded at her while smiling and watched her back as she walked out of the door.

How long will I remain this way? I’ve known everything about Eliot for a very long time, but I’m keeping quiet because I don’t want to lose him. I’m not sure if I should just give him away. Every time I wonder if they would reconcile so that I can stay, it aches, especially now that her ex-lover is back. I’m the one who stole and destroyed a relationship out of desperation, and even if I insisted that everyone knew, I’d still come out on the losing end. I also can’t show Eliot how bad I am; yes, sometimes my demonic nature shows itself, but it will not lead to the slaughter.

I also need to find my daughter, because I can’t just rely on Eliot I always know the day will come when he will get tired and go back to the person he first loved, I also know even if he says he loves me he still has Iris in his heart and mind. Because of thinking what was what I did not realize that the door opened and Eliot opened up there while carrying a brown paper bag knowing that was food.

If pretending to be happy in front of him just to make sure he won’t find out about my condition then, I’ll do it.

“Hey, are you hungry?” He asked me as he walked closer to me.

“It’s not hubby, you’re just come in right time I already feel hungry.” I answered him, I saw him smile and arrange the food on the side table of the hospital bed.

“Then let’s eat, I’ll feed you so you won’t get tired.” He said so I just nodded to him before moving slowly so he could sit next to me. He arranged everything before taking a chopsticks and a plate and he put a cup of rise, Bulgogi, while on the table was the rest of food, I wondered why he was carrying only one plate.

“Wait, hubby why are you only holding one plate? Where are you going to eat?” I asked him in surprise so his attention went to me.

“What do I think?” He said before he started to feed me so I did nothing but eat what he fed me and I was even more shocked when he next ate the food with the chopsticks he used to feed me.

“Aren’t you feeling awkward, hubby?” I smiled and told him so but he just shook his head and quietly feed me again.

Time passed when we finished eating and he put away what we both ate, I just watched his every move until he finished and stood beside me.

“Sleep that I’ll watch over you until the sun comes up.” He said so I went to bed.

“Hubby, the doctor came here earlier and she said I can discharge tomorrow.” I lied to him because if we stay here longer, he might find out about my condition.

“That’s good news my queen.” He said before he kissed my forehead and he sat down on a plastic chair next to the hospital bed.

“Can’t you sleep?” I asked him.

“I’ll sleep but I’ll be waiting for you to fall asleep first before I go to sleep.” He said softly. But I couldn’t calm down when he didn’t sleep so I moved to the left and tapped the space on the hospital bed where I was lying, telling him to sleep next to me, he didn’t do anything but sleep next to me. I made his arm as pillow before I hugged him.

I could feel his hot breath above my head but I just closed my eyes before hugging him tightly, as if I didn’t want tomorrow to come because I felt like I would lose him. I can’t afford to lose him, I’ll try to fight even though I know I’m still the loser in the end.

I could feel his kiss on my head as he touched my back, because of what he was doing unknowingly I could feel the security in his arms.

“I want us to always be like this.” I said softly to him. But I didn’t get an answer from him. “It’s looks you’re already asleepy, sleep well hubby.” I said before letting the darkness swallow me.Belongs to (N)ôvel/Drama.Org.